Another day. I don't think so.

I really don't know how to start this blog. I really don't know how to state the feelings that I am going through right now. I guess you could say that I am rejoicing. I am happy that the Lord will favor me enough to continue to show me signs and wonders of His majestic glory. Praise be to God.

Woke up in another trance. Woke up with belief and in faith for another day abounding in the presence of our Lord Jesus Christ. Woke up to some tunes. Rocked out and got my spirit all filled and ready to take on any obstacle that came my way.

I had to drink a couple cups of coffee and had a couple muffins while I was working with my students. Some of these students are very intelligent whilst others are still in the transitional phase of their academic career. I was happy to be in the presence of the Lord and to be able to be humble enough to bring his presence with me right into that classroom. That He would minister individually to these students. That He would proclaim His glory in a different way to each and every one of these young souls.

I am laying down some of my time and proclaim that I may some of my own works to work in their works. I am happy to proclaim this. Happy to show that wisdom can come in an instant and can be lost in a instant. It came through feverish prayer and it can be lost with the.. what is the opposite of prayer? I cannot fathom the opposite.

I am overflowing and bubbling in the Spirit that the wind would indeed blow today. That when I ask that I shall receive. I sometimes ask for wisdom I sometimes feel intelligent. I feel these things. And see these things but It doesn't make me better than anyone. It increases my humility. That someone like me can empower other students. That I can pray for them even when they seem to hate me. Some may still have the presumptuous attitude . But I ask for them and hopefully they are receiving whatever they may need. Thanks be to God. Onwards and upwards in feverish prayer.

I am now awake after a third cup of coffee. I am ready to minister. Ready to apply myself and to live in patience and in the ways of the Lord. Slow to speak, quick to listen. Build relationships. Build in the Church. Build in the Body.

I admonished where there needed admonishing I praised where there needed praise. I accepted my speech and proclaimed my speech. I ate with the enemy (our flesh) and uttered my rebuke to its desires. I stare into the distance and into the skies in awe struck wonder. My mind has been altered by so many teachers of the Law. Now I am a teacher with the Spirit. Sharing my works and my attitudes towards other minds and souls and bodies. Another teacher but not of the Law but of the Spirit.

Another day?Another trance? I don't think so.

I was in the Mall. Where the work of the Lord is being developed. I had an encounter with a soul for Christ. David. He waved his recognition. We shared a few words and we acknowledged our gathering this Friday. I moved on to another location where the Lord is working. I met Cheston. He waved me over and discussed the Word. Discussed sharing your faith. Discussed

Matthew 25:35

35 For I was an hungred, and ye gave me meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me in:

36 Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me.

The Lord granted me meat. Granted me his living waters. Granted me hospitality. Granted me protection. Showed me his works in the Wind.... visited me in Prison and broke the unbalanced yoke. I am flowing in the right direction down the river of life. I continued on my journey.

The sun was shining at first and the wind wasn't in the air. My mouth was parched and my feet ready to be on the move. There was change in the air. There was a storm coming. Not a horrific storm of the soul but a storm of the Spirit. Is this another High that I am feeling? This is the new drug that I accepted in the past and was drunk in. In the spirit... not of wine but of His Blood. Amazing. I separated the body from the mind. I was thinking laterally. True duality in my deity/trinity. It was time to walk. Time to share my story. For another to listen than to share.

I found myself at the Listening Post. Sharing my testimony. Filled with Love. Filled with expressiveness of the Truth. That is Christ Jesus in all. A story was told and a bit of my faith was departed from my soul onto hers. She may take it as is but Its all God's work it isn't any of mine. I rejoice in this and in that I don't suffer when I utter my story. As Paul stated in Philippians that to live is Christ and to die is Gain. That I could die and still be happy I would be in a place that would be beyond imagination... but to be in the flesh in this present condition is much more proper for other lost souls walking this earth. What was uttered was uttered. What was spoken was spoken. What was heard was heard. I now have but a glimpse of what Paul meant in Philippians. I smiled said my salutations and peace offerings. I had to walk again.

This time I ran in the Spirit. I Knew that there was something ahead of me and something much better further ahead of me. That though my eyes peer in the distance that my heart would peer beyond that. Into the internal disposition not upon external facades.

I saw a old beat up red suburban. It was beautiful. It was there for a reason. To show me that others are working in Christ. It isn't a centralized conception of reality but a broad holistic/collectivist effort of the Church to share the Good News. My friends were located within. They asked what I was doing. I told them “Running Around”. They nodded in agreement and told me they were “Turning Around.” I had to be somewhere I departed from another miraculous encounter. There is a reason for these little encounters. I just haven't felt the revelation. I put my trust in the Lord that it would come. But NotYet. Not Yet.

I was sitting there perplexed and in a sort of “trance” I was in the zone. In the Spirit. I was generally happy. How can this continue? I kept second guessing myself. Kept having to fight the good fight and to accept reality. That is Christ Jesus. To accept his comfort and that comfort comes from one thing. Entering in His rest. I prayed that the Spirit would fill the room. That the storm would come within the little office filled with many depressed/angry people. That the wind would blow. Instantaneously the wind blew. I closed my eyes as the wind cooled off my sweaty brow. IT was the first time that I ran to this office with my head held high rather than in despair. The wind calmed me. Told me that he is still there in the midst of “criminals”

The meeting was brief. The release was absolute. One more step in the right direction. I really don't know how to end this blog and I really didn't know how to begin it. But what is in It was from Him and given to me to share. Thanks be to God.




Another day? Yes of walking. But not ordinary. The extraordinary. The extraordinary is born from the ordinary. I guess I will keep walking in his Grace. It seems to be working.


Brethren, the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit. Amen.
Galatians 6:18

Awake. Fast. Lust. Sin Sin Sin. Repentance. Ask. Dream. Testimony. Love

I woke up and thought I had to go to work. Went to work and no one was there. I had class as well and did my presentation. I felt so lonely. I decided to fast.

The enemy came over me.

Lust was burning in my flesh. I sinned. I felt Ill. I belonged to Hell at that moment. I needed to lay down. I went outside and almost fell asleep on the University Lawn. I got up and took the next bus home..

I found some change. I had enough money to buy a cigar. I bought one. And I sinned against the temple. The enemy is trying to bring me back to death. I felt more Ill.

I came home and was disgusted of my sexual immorality. I was one step away. The lust took over. I sinned.

I needed to repent. I took a long hot shower. I had to talk to myself and to God. I had to crawl back into his presence. For I 1. Unlocked the door. 2. Opened the door. 3. Invited the Devil into my life.

I had to seek repentance. I had to ASK God for some healing. I asked him to speak to me in a Dream. He was loving and merciful. I closed my eyes for a nap. Next thing I knew I was in a dream. It really wasnt a dream... it was a lucid dream.

The 3 Dreams.

1. I was inside of a classroom. There were many people and the professor had a power point presentation on Deanna Yeetz. The floor was red. The room on 3 sides were all windows. I kept falling around and convulsing on the floor. I had no control over that. Everyone seemed to be mad at me for some reason. For interrupting them during class... I was drunk in class.. between convulsions on the floor in the classroom I found a seat in the corner. The last thing I remember was holding a 5th of green apple smarinoff vodka and I threw it into a corner... then I was transfered to another dream.

2. I was in a small room. The room was as small as a study room at our university. There was a older gentlemen behind the desk. He was an accountant. Behind him were many unnamed books on a small bookshelf. He looked professional and all I kind of remembering was that he had money. Money. Out of no where I was transfered into his body and I could control him. I walked around and out of nowhere time just stopped gravity stopped. It was so erie. Then I could move.

3. This third dream was morphed from the second. I could see three women in the distance. I was walking towards them and there came that familiar burning desire of lust. These three women were going up an escalator and I decided to feel up a women around her private area because I was so lustful. At that moment. There was a foot kicking me away. The women started to disappear.. then I awoke. Perplexed.

All three dreams were interconnected. The first dream represented my struggle with alcoholism and school. It ended with me throwing away my drug. The second dream was my worry about money and its promises for me. I need to stop. Just stop. (This is all I'm getting so far out of it) not to worry about money. For I can get caught up in it easily.... The third dream was about the three sins that happened before the dream. God was trying to teach me something in this encounter. Maybe he was just trying to show his presence.

A couple days ago God appeared in a dream to me as a Old man. Saying. " Stay and follow my ways"... and I heard a flash of thunder. It was amazing and I can't believe I overlooked these signs and wonders and continued to sin. Its amazing that though sin and traveling through these rough psychological times that God(holy trinity) is always there with His arms wide open waiting for you to give Him a hug.

After my dream I woke and had to make it to the Campus Crusade for Christ ministry. Ran into a few of them on the bus... then I had a presence to speak about my own personal story about my trials and tribulations and my faith in Jesus Christ. Thanks be to God. I spoke with David and Drew and Chris Tomas. My brothers in Christ. It was a experience beyond measure.

Thank You Lord Jesus.
Thank You Holy Spirit.
Thank you Father God.

I pray in the name of Jesus that any Lust or sexual perversion will be abolished by the blood of Christ. Thanks be to God.

I Love you Lord. Continue in your work. Finish what you have started. Continue to grant me peace, love and understanding. Grant me JOY. Grant me more revelations. Mold me into a warrior for Christ.

Amen.

Let the Window Blow let the Wind Blow

The wind is blowing outside. I want the holy spirit to keep talking to me. Even though I fall down Jesus is there to pick me up. I am so thankful that I have a God that loves me as much as he does. Why do you love me so much? Why me? Why me? Why me?

I cast this Crown of Grudge to the ground and pick up my Crown of Thorns.
Here is my dirt and my drege. Amplify me and glorify my name amongst the Gentiles.
Let the Holy Spirit flow through me and let the river of life refresh my parched lips.
My heart aches for you Lord Jesus.


What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

Take my empire of dirt. Take my sins. Cast this dirty crown to the depths of Hell. I walk to you and with you Jesus with a Glowing Crown of Light.
RUBUKE THIS LUST IN THE NAME OF JESUS.

I don't want to let you down. I don't want to make you hurt.
You are my sweetest friend.