Sunday, June 12, 2011

CCforChrist Day 1

Today was a great day to be with the Lord Jesus. I had the opportunity to connect with the new group of men that came up from all over the United States. All of them are on fire as god is on fire. Thank You Lord for this Blessing. This is a new season for me. Lord plant me beside the waters of the holy spirit. I am eager to learn what you have in store for me and my friends. Amen. Today we learned about the prodigal son. We learned the difference between who the father is and who the son and whom the holy spirit is. Here it is.

God is the center of all. The Son is God. The Father is God. The Spirit is God. But alas, the Father is not the Spirit as the Spirit is not the Father, the Father is not the Son as the Son is not the Father. The Spirit is not the Son as the Son is not the Spirit.

Luke 15

The Parable of the Lost Sheep
1 Now the tax collectors and sinners were all gathering around to hear Jesus. 2 But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, “This man welcomes sinners and eats with them.”

3 Then Jesus told them this parable: 4 “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? 5 And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders 6 and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ 7 I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

The Parable of the Lost Coin
8 “Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins[a] and loses one. Doesn’t she light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? 9 And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.’ 10 In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”
The Parable of the Lost Son
11 Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. 12The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.

13 “Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14 After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15 So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16 He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

17 “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18 I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19 I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ 20 So he got up and went to his father.

“But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him. (This wasn't customary to Hebrews of the time. This showed how much the Father Loves us.)

21 “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’

22 “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23 Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. 24 For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.

25 “Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. 26 So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 27 ‘Your brother has come,’ he replied, ‘and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.’

28 “The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29 But he answered his father, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30 But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!’

31 “‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32 But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”

What a passage! What an Amazing testimony of how much God loves us. This just shows that no matter how far away. How much time we have spent in Greed. How much time we have spent in another season besides Christ Jesus, our Father has that amazing compassionate Love as a mother has for her children. We sung. Oh How he Loves us. By David Crowder. It felt good to sing holy praise to our Father. Mike, a leader in Christ, showed us a photograph done by Rembrant (as pictured above). He asked us to carefully look and reflect on what makes this picture a reflection of Gods Amazing Love. What do you think? Check out the fathers hands, the fathers compassionate face, and the older brothers indifferent stance.
Such a great painting about how much our Lord loves us.
Me and Chris are really looking forward to being pure. To follow Christ. To be Apostles. To LOVE LOVE LOVE. To be agents of Love. Today was a great day. God Bless this ministry and God bless me and Chris and others that will be touched by this ministry. AMEN.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Life's little games. My growth in the Spiri.

How is one hundred percent purity obtainable? I have played many video games in the past and all I had to do was quests and click a few buttons to obtain experience, skill points and honor. It seems as if it could be that easy. I think it can be obtainable to an extent(lets say 90 percent purity). Since last July the road to purity took some tremendous leaps and downfalls.

I have been struggling to keep the faith and fight the good fight. I've had to sleep outside a couple occasions because of my idiocy. Once the campus crusade guys left I started to stumble and fall because I didn't have a solid foundation of Christian brothers and sisters. The enemy seems to know where I am the weakest and continually attacks that portion of my mind, body and soul. I know that I can be super-victorious in Christ. I know that I can return my mind into a healthy, loving and care-giving demeanor. I know it will just take 100 percent trust in the Lord. And 100 percent trust in myself.

I found myself in the drunk-tank a couple months ago for some child-like antics. Inside it was another eye-opener of where alcohol can bring me. Of what it can do to me. Of how it can ruin my life. I was reminded a while ago that If I commit any type of jail able offence I could face up to 3 years in prison. That really doesn't sound like fun to me. So most recently one of my good friends brought me out of my routine of foolishness and brought me back to reality. That is to live as Christ lives. To love as our amazing God loves. And to act as a Godly man in all that I do or say.

We found ourselves over at the Providence Hospital late at night because the downtown Church (The Holy Family Cathedral) was closed. I remember going inside and praying for a while and I read all of 1st John. It was such a relief and afterwards my friend bought me a necklace of a cross. To continue to remind myself of what Christ did on the cross for me. What He did in the past. And that He is faithful to finish what He has started.

I felt awake and aware. Knowledgeable of my past and a little confused about my future. I visited folks and felt the spirit tugging at my heart.

Just one moment and then it all went downhill.

I need to find out these patterns in my life and become more aware when I am turning towards another episode. I'm sure it is possible. I do want to go to Heaven. I do want to do great works. I just need another miracle. Lord. Help me in my place. Shine your light into my mind, heart and soul to continue to follow your laws. I Love You. I need You. I want more of You. Never leave me or forsake me!

I don't know if my life will always be cycling between the good parts of me and the bad parts of me. I know that Now I do have a future as I completed a semester of college that led me to finally graduate with a college degree. From prisoner with no hope to a humble Christ follower with a college degree. I have seen change. God IS working in me and in others around me. Lord help me not to forget what you have already shown me and done for me. I have heard of miraculous healings. I have seen them myself. Miracles are REAL.

If you don't think you can conquer your trials. Place it on the foot of the cross. Let go and Let God.

Yes. I say this. Yes. I pray this. But will I not stumble? Will I not be pure? Will I always be pure in the sight of our Lord Jesus Christ? I sure hope so.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

A Day of Evangelicalism to The Alaska Native Community

I met up with some members from the Campus Crusade for Christ this morning and decided it was time to go share my faith. The very first time I was sharing my faith was with the Alaska Native population that was so repressed in effect from many destructive causes from non-natives back in the 1900s. I definitely had a little glimpse of the spiritual realm of the AK Natives but my eyes haven't been more open after reading Harold Napoleon's paper entitled " Yuuyaraq: The Way of the Human Being" In this work which was a letter from prison Harold presented the history of the implementation of disease,drugs, elixirs, alcohol to the Alaska Native peoples. How the Great Death and the brutality from the Christians/Priests influenced this repression of their own values to the destruction of major rural villages and small native communities. I was shocked at the revelation that was presented to me.. that we were on a mission trip... sharing Christianity with these Alaskan Natives that were so brutally handled by previous Christians. I am now somewhat.. could it be ashamed of my own new beliefs facing off with my Alaska Native heritage? I am in somewhat of a moral dichotomy.

I sat down with a Native man from Hooper Bay and we discussed some of the terrible experiences that are happening in the Rural villages of Alaska and how this Great Death of the 1900s and the suffering followed led to all this emotional repression which is destroying communities. These Alaska Natives are trying to fill the voids of their hearts and trying to numb this pain through the mediator of Alcohol and drugs. When all this repression is stored in our souls we are angered... we are at lost... and when the alcohol reaches the inner depths of our souls the enemy takes over and we self-destruct.

There is healing through. And Harold promotes the idea of a common unity of Alaska Natives. That they all have to come together. That many social services would have to be run by Alaska Natives. The healing begins when we come together and share our stories. When we share our struggles. There is a underlying hatred in myself that I have to speak with my higher power about. That this repression within my own soul can be conquered. Through the combination of moral beliefs in Christianity and the release of the old Mosaic ways of thinking (We can think of this as old native spiritual beliefs) the healing process can commence. I believe that over years and through next generation Alaskan Natives that this idea of "Christians are out to change our society" will be released and they will succumb to the everlasting power of Christ through their own efforts. Until then the White man will have to be patient and understanding with Alaskan Natives throughout this transition which may continue on for a few more generations.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

A Night of Sin. A Night of Capture

What a interesting night. I was busy sinning smoking cigarettes drinking booze and lustfully sinning than all of a sudden I saw 2 males outside stealing things from vehicles. I first spooted them whilst I was outside smoking a cigarette. They were behind my house looking trough vehicles on an attempt to steal items. They went house from house and finally found entrance into a camper/RV. I called the police. We talked over the phone for quite some time and we discussed what was happening as the events progressed. As I am typing this the offenders are in the vehicles right outside my door.

After the camper they went to my next door neighbors house and tried to gain access to the cars/trucks and then they went to my other neighbors house as well. I was outside when an officer saw me. I pointed him in the right direction. After this the officer wanted to speak with me.

I went outside and I talked with the officer. Within a second the two criminals came running around the corner right in front of the officer. I pointed them out and said that is them right there. Then they were handcuffed. A lady officer came to me and asked me my information. Asked me to show her around the neighboorhood to show her what cars were broken into as well. I did this and saw what each of them tried to steal and procure. I asked the officers what this meant to me because I recently was let off probation not a week ago...

What was this encounter all about? Was it to show me what will come of me when I continue to drink? If I continue to sin? There definetly was a messege behind this story. God will reveal it to me tonight and tomarrow.

The officers are still outside. I saw my nextdoor negihbor behind me come and talk to the officers. This was the same neighbor that I slashed tires towards. Is this an example of paying it forward? This is amazing. I was once the criminal now I am the one calling in to the police officers to deter criminals.

I wonder what is next? This is amazing.

Thank you Lord for this teaching. Thank you Lord for this understanding. This is amazing.

Praise to the Father, son and the Holy Ghost.

Thanks be to God


Sunday, July 11, 2010

Free from the Bondage of Law and Probation: The Allure of Rules

Today was reality. I am free from bondage I am free from the Law and free from Probation. The past two years I have been on probation because of a action against my neighbors. I was lost in sin and lost in the law that lead me to believe that I had to be a perfectionist. But to some of us we NEED rules to govern our lives... to feel as if we are working in Christ.

I was totally wrong. I was using human effort to achieve something that is unobtainable (100 Percent purity). But Christ Jesus has already done it for us. We need to be reminded when we received the Holy Spirit that...

"Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ"
Philipians 1:6 KJV

That by His Holy Spirit and by the sacrifice of Jesus Christ on the cross of calvary all we have to do is enter in His rest.
That whatever work our Creator has made us for he is faithful to complete it.
That if we try to complete our own works by the flesh (that is by the law) and not of the Spirit we will utterly fail and be deemed foolish.
The Apostle Paul wrote to many doubters that thought they needed rules to guide them...

You foolish Galatians! Who has hypnotized you, before whose eyes Jesus Christ was vividly portrayed as crucified? I only want to learn this from you: Did you receive the Spirit by the works of the law or by hearing with faith? Are you so foolish? After beginning with the Spirit, are you now going to be made complete by the flesh?Did you suffer so much for nothing- if in fact it was for nothing? So then, does God supply you with the Spirit and work miracles among you by the works of the law or be hearing with faith? - Galatians 3:1-5

This is to convict believers that have received the Spirit but are returning to the law as a means of self-improvement. That we received His Spirit through FAITH and not to finish with human efforts (the law) or else we are doomed to fail.

Conviction: "Isn't the presence of the resurrected Christ inside of you enough?"

Thanks be to God.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Another day. I don't think so.

I really don't know how to start this blog. I really don't know how to state the feelings that I am going through right now. I guess you could say that I am rejoicing. I am happy that the Lord will favor me enough to continue to show me signs and wonders of His majestic glory. Praise be to God.

Woke up in another trance. Woke up with belief and in faith for another day abounding in the presence of our Lord Jesus Christ. Woke up to some tunes. Rocked out and got my spirit all filled and ready to take on any obstacle that came my way.

I had to drink a couple cups of coffee and had a couple muffins while I was working with my students. Some of these students are very intelligent whilst others are still in the transitional phase of their academic career. I was happy to be in the presence of the Lord and to be able to be humble enough to bring his presence with me right into that classroom. That He would minister individually to these students. That He would proclaim His glory in a different way to each and every one of these young souls.

I am laying down some of my time and proclaim that I may some of my own works to work in their works. I am happy to proclaim this. Happy to show that wisdom can come in an instant and can be lost in a instant. It came through feverish prayer and it can be lost with the.. what is the opposite of prayer? I cannot fathom the opposite.

I am overflowing and bubbling in the Spirit that the wind would indeed blow today. That when I ask that I shall receive. I sometimes ask for wisdom I sometimes feel intelligent. I feel these things. And see these things but It doesn't make me better than anyone. It increases my humility. That someone like me can empower other students. That I can pray for them even when they seem to hate me. Some may still have the presumptuous attitude . But I ask for them and hopefully they are receiving whatever they may need. Thanks be to God. Onwards and upwards in feverish prayer.

I am now awake after a third cup of coffee. I am ready to minister. Ready to apply myself and to live in patience and in the ways of the Lord. Slow to speak, quick to listen. Build relationships. Build in the Church. Build in the Body.

I admonished where there needed admonishing I praised where there needed praise. I accepted my speech and proclaimed my speech. I ate with the enemy (our flesh) and uttered my rebuke to its desires. I stare into the distance and into the skies in awe struck wonder. My mind has been altered by so many teachers of the Law. Now I am a teacher with the Spirit. Sharing my works and my attitudes towards other minds and souls and bodies. Another teacher but not of the Law but of the Spirit.

Another day?Another trance? I don't think so.

I was in the Mall. Where the work of the Lord is being developed. I had an encounter with a soul for Christ. David. He waved his recognition. We shared a few words and we acknowledged our gathering this Friday. I moved on to another location where the Lord is working. I met Cheston. He waved me over and discussed the Word. Discussed sharing your faith. Discussed

Matthew 25:35

35 For I was an hungred, and ye gave me meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me in:

36 Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me.

The Lord granted me meat. Granted me his living waters. Granted me hospitality. Granted me protection. Showed me his works in the Wind.... visited me in Prison and broke the unbalanced yoke. I am flowing in the right direction down the river of life. I continued on my journey.

The sun was shining at first and the wind wasn't in the air. My mouth was parched and my feet ready to be on the move. There was change in the air. There was a storm coming. Not a horrific storm of the soul but a storm of the Spirit. Is this another High that I am feeling? This is the new drug that I accepted in the past and was drunk in. In the spirit... not of wine but of His Blood. Amazing. I separated the body from the mind. I was thinking laterally. True duality in my deity/trinity. It was time to walk. Time to share my story. For another to listen than to share.

I found myself at the Listening Post. Sharing my testimony. Filled with Love. Filled with expressiveness of the Truth. That is Christ Jesus in all. A story was told and a bit of my faith was departed from my soul onto hers. She may take it as is but Its all God's work it isn't any of mine. I rejoice in this and in that I don't suffer when I utter my story. As Paul stated in Philippians that to live is Christ and to die is Gain. That I could die and still be happy I would be in a place that would be beyond imagination... but to be in the flesh in this present condition is much more proper for other lost souls walking this earth. What was uttered was uttered. What was spoken was spoken. What was heard was heard. I now have but a glimpse of what Paul meant in Philippians. I smiled said my salutations and peace offerings. I had to walk again.

This time I ran in the Spirit. I Knew that there was something ahead of me and something much better further ahead of me. That though my eyes peer in the distance that my heart would peer beyond that. Into the internal disposition not upon external facades.

I saw a old beat up red suburban. It was beautiful. It was there for a reason. To show me that others are working in Christ. It isn't a centralized conception of reality but a broad holistic/collectivist effort of the Church to share the Good News. My friends were located within. They asked what I was doing. I told them “Running Around”. They nodded in agreement and told me they were “Turning Around.” I had to be somewhere I departed from another miraculous encounter. There is a reason for these little encounters. I just haven't felt the revelation. I put my trust in the Lord that it would come. But NotYet. Not Yet.

I was sitting there perplexed and in a sort of “trance” I was in the zone. In the Spirit. I was generally happy. How can this continue? I kept second guessing myself. Kept having to fight the good fight and to accept reality. That is Christ Jesus. To accept his comfort and that comfort comes from one thing. Entering in His rest. I prayed that the Spirit would fill the room. That the storm would come within the little office filled with many depressed/angry people. That the wind would blow. Instantaneously the wind blew. I closed my eyes as the wind cooled off my sweaty brow. IT was the first time that I ran to this office with my head held high rather than in despair. The wind calmed me. Told me that he is still there in the midst of “criminals”

The meeting was brief. The release was absolute. One more step in the right direction. I really don't know how to end this blog and I really didn't know how to begin it. But what is in It was from Him and given to me to share. Thanks be to God.

Another day? Yes of walking. But not ordinary. The extraordinary. The extraordinary is born from the ordinary. I guess I will keep walking in his Grace. It seems to be working.

Brethren, the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit. Amen.
Galatians 6:18

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Awake. Fast. Lust. Sin Sin Sin. Repentance. Ask. Dream. Testimony. Love

I woke up and thought I had to go to work. Went to work and no one was there. I had class as well and did my presentation. I felt so lonely. I decided to fast.

The enemy came over me.

Lust was burning in my flesh. I sinned. I felt Ill. I belonged to Hell at that moment. I needed to lay down. I went outside and almost fell asleep on the University Lawn. I got up and took the next bus home..

I found some change. I had enough money to buy a cigar. I bought one. And I sinned against the temple. The enemy is trying to bring me back to death. I felt more Ill.

I came home and was disgusted of my sexual immorality. I was one step away. The lust took over. I sinned.

I needed to repent. I took a long hot shower. I had to talk to myself and to God. I had to crawl back into his presence. For I 1. Unlocked the door. 2. Opened the door. 3. Invited the Devil into my life.

I had to seek repentance. I had to ASK God for some healing. I asked him to speak to me in a Dream. He was loving and merciful. I closed my eyes for a nap. Next thing I knew I was in a dream. It really wasnt a dream... it was a lucid dream.

The 3 Dreams.

1. I was inside of a classroom. There were many people and the professor had a power point presentation on Deanna Yeetz. The floor was red. The room on 3 sides were all windows. I kept falling around and convulsing on the floor. I had no control over that. Everyone seemed to be mad at me for some reason. For interrupting them during class... I was drunk in class.. between convulsions on the floor in the classroom I found a seat in the corner. The last thing I remember was holding a 5th of green apple smarinoff vodka and I threw it into a corner... then I was transfered to another dream.

2. I was in a small room. The room was as small as a study room at our university. There was a older gentlemen behind the desk. He was an accountant. Behind him were many unnamed books on a small bookshelf. He looked professional and all I kind of remembering was that he had money. Money. Out of no where I was transfered into his body and I could control him. I walked around and out of nowhere time just stopped gravity stopped. It was so erie. Then I could move.

3. This third dream was morphed from the second. I could see three women in the distance. I was walking towards them and there came that familiar burning desire of lust. These three women were going up an escalator and I decided to feel up a women around her private area because I was so lustful. At that moment. There was a foot kicking me away. The women started to disappear.. then I awoke. Perplexed.

All three dreams were interconnected. The first dream represented my struggle with alcoholism and school. It ended with me throwing away my drug. The second dream was my worry about money and its promises for me. I need to stop. Just stop. (This is all I'm getting so far out of it) not to worry about money. For I can get caught up in it easily.... The third dream was about the three sins that happened before the dream. God was trying to teach me something in this encounter. Maybe he was just trying to show his presence.

A couple days ago God appeared in a dream to me as a Old man. Saying. " Stay and follow my ways"... and I heard a flash of thunder. It was amazing and I can't believe I overlooked these signs and wonders and continued to sin. Its amazing that though sin and traveling through these rough psychological times that God(holy trinity) is always there with His arms wide open waiting for you to give Him a hug.

After my dream I woke and had to make it to the Campus Crusade for Christ ministry. Ran into a few of them on the bus... then I had a presence to speak about my own personal story about my trials and tribulations and my faith in Jesus Christ. Thanks be to God. I spoke with David and Drew and Chris Tomas. My brothers in Christ. It was a experience beyond measure.

Thank You Lord Jesus.
Thank You Holy Spirit.
Thank you Father God.

I pray in the name of Jesus that any Lust or sexual perversion will be abolished by the blood of Christ. Thanks be to God.

I Love you Lord. Continue in your work. Finish what you have started. Continue to grant me peace, love and understanding. Grant me JOY. Grant me more revelations. Mold me into a warrior for Christ.


Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Let the Window Blow let the Wind Blow

The wind is blowing outside. I want the holy spirit to keep talking to me. Even though I fall down Jesus is there to pick me up. I am so thankful that I have a God that loves me as much as he does. Why do you love me so much? Why me? Why me? Why me?

I cast this Crown of Grudge to the ground and pick up my Crown of Thorns.
Here is my dirt and my drege. Amplify me and glorify my name amongst the Gentiles.
Let the Holy Spirit flow through me and let the river of life refresh my parched lips.
My heart aches for you Lord Jesus.

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

Take my empire of dirt. Take my sins. Cast this dirty crown to the depths of Hell. I walk to you and with you Jesus with a Glowing Crown of Light.

I don't want to let you down. I don't want to make you hurt.
You are my sweetest friend.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Campus Crusade... a calling?

Interesting. Love. God. Love. And more Love.

God is placing stones in my life. Helping these wonderful men of God share the Gospel. 3 Ministries. AK NATIVE, UAA, and Basketball.

I start work tomorrow... I will be tutoring 15 students. Some don't even have their books yet! I'm just going to keep praying in the Holy Spirit. I am going to keep singing. I am going to keep Loving on my brothers in Christ. Thanks be to God. The wind is strong I can feel it. I am drunk. But God I want more. Show me more of your Love. Show me more than the tip of the iceberg. Praise be to God. In the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit I pray life and abundance over my life and over all my surrendered brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus. May their hearts be filled with the peace of the Gospel. Let us hug the cross. No nails in the cross. Just the cross. Let us embrace the cross. Let us flow down the river. Let us hit other stones. But most of all lets reach the party. The still waters.

Wherever I go thats where the party's at.

Monday, June 21, 2010

I saw things. I tasted things. I rejoiced.

Praise God. Praise Jesus. Praise the Holy Spirit.

Previously I only was able to see and the hear and to touch on the tip of the iceberg related to diving into the river. I am now a smother stone than I was about a couple days ago. I bumped into many rocks down the river of my life. Things seem so much more real. There were many signs and wonders during the Wind of the Holy Spirit conference down in Kenai/Soldotna Alaska (June 13 - June 20).

I had a revelation from the Holy Spirit. And that is to let the wind blow and to walk in Love. As God is Love I should walk in His Love. Thanks be to God. Hallelujah!

I saw a marking on my leg as I prayed. It spelled Love.
I smelled the holy essence of Jesus. His blood. His wine. His Love.
I saw mass surrender to our Holy Holy Holy trinity.
People yelled HEY. When they felt the wind. They were welcoming the Holy Spirit in open arms.
I was surrounded by the wonders of the waters. I was flowing down the river. I was becoming smoother. Thanks be to God. Hallelujah!
I finally tasted his wine. I almost fought it. But I surrendered. I laughed. I rejoiced! ITS A NEW LIFE FOR ME! I'm feeling good. Praise be to God. Hallelujah!

When this revelation came it was better than anything that I have experienced ever before In my life. I now have understanding. I now have guidance. The eagle has been let out of the chicken coop. Hallelujah! *Insert Laughter* I am drunk off his tender mercy!! THANK YOU!
I am now not going down in despair. I am not tethered to my past. The Holy Spirit now speaks in my ear. Walk my son. And soon you will be glorified. Thanks be to God.

Its a new dawn, Its a new day, its a new life for me.
And I'm feeling Good.