Every end has a new begining

There was a time in my life when everything felt terrible.
I was sad.
I was mad.
I was angry.
I was someone you really didnt want to be around.

This time is over.

I recently got Baptized in the name of the Holy trinity.

I feel amazing.
I am reborn.

Praise God!

Although it might seem quite odd that my line of reasoning has changed from pessemistic to optimistic (as you can note from my previous entry),

I tell you the truth!

I have seen the Father. I have seen his presence. And all is well.



It was a long road filled with tears, trials and tribulations. It was a road filled with carnal ideologies. The road was filled with dirty thoughts.

My worldview was not even remotly christian.

I am now happy that I still suffer for Christ.
I am happy that I can say that I am completly Humble and that I fear the Lord.

Thank you Lord for opening my eyes, heart, nose and mouth to speak and feel your presence within my life. It truthfully is a wonderful gift from above.

Your grace makes me smile. Your cross makes me cry. You fill my heart up with joy, singing and praise. I can't even describe with my own carnal flesh the neverending magnificance of your eternal kingdom.

This is my Prayer to you Lord.

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Father I stand in awe this morning at the never ending magnificance of your eternal Kingdom. I cannot help but smile as the revelations of your spiritual realm are becomming more and more real. Your Holy word just jumps out at me whenever I read it. The truths spoken there are far deeper than I ever knew and i thank you because it is your Holy spirit who helps me to understand these truths at a deeper level.

The implication for all our lives is far greater than anything I understood before. I confess in times past I would read and study but to experience these truthsd is beyond anything I ever really knew to be possible. How immense is your Kingdom and how wonderful it is to get a glimpse of the eternal truths from inside the pages of your Bible.

Today father I can hardly wait to get inside your word. I am in awe at the newly revealed reality of your truths. it is a humbling experience to realize how tightly I used to hold on the the familiar and confortable understandings I had in the past. It is also a little frightening to me (in a good way) to recognize yow much I would have missed if i had not kept digging. I thank you Lord that you refuse to allow me to rest in comfort anymore. You have been in the business of challenging me for quite a while now.

Over and over I hear you remind me that I will be as close to you and your truths as I choose to be.

I am also more aware of my own human limitations and I can honestly say how relieved I am to live ech new day in a surrendered state of mind. As odd as it sounds when I say it I am relieved to know that everytime I surrender to you and follow your ways I am somehow seeing a new dimenstion of your truths.

I really don't have the proper words to explain it but this new expectation is worth whatever I had that was laid down.

As humans we understand so little of your spiritual realm and yet I know we are still supposed to be living in that spiritual realm right now - right here on this earth. Understanding your spiritual truths with a mind like Christ is the Goal of my life. It is a one day at a time process but ever since I crossed over the Jordan the eyes of enlightenment you have given to me and to all of your surrendered ones has keeped me focused and on point.

I pray today for my surrendered brothers and sisters who are everywhere - alol around the world. They are a very special gift to me as I recognize your call on their lives and can join with them as together we keep on keeping on.

I ask you to protect them with divine protection from above releasing the Spirtual Armor of God and sheltering them everyday - sealing them from permanent injury. I ask you to revel yourself and manifest your presence to them as they obediently labor in your Harvest Fields (wherever you have planted them.)

Father the need I have deep within is a spirtual gift you have given me to sustain and encourage me - and I am grateful that I finally get this. It has become a profound truth recognizing that ahead of me lays more and mroe revelations of your scriptual truths -- as well as a deeper understanding of the application of these truths for my daily walk.

Thank you that you seen to it that I would be hungry - mor esimple hunger -that I would be desperate for your truths, seeking you out as if my very life depended on it - as it really does.

Protect me, my family and church and all whom I journey on this exciting path of life - which I know in the end will lead me into your presence and the fullness of your truths.

To you be all the honor and glory.

Amen