As I continue on with my life I am consistently bombarded with eternal questions regarding religion, questions regarding what is "right" and what is "wrong" and questions of the complex compared with the questions of the simple. My blog, as with many others, helps me differentiate between my authentic self and my unavoidable carnal ideologies. The purpose of MY blog is to help me find those answers from the questions that spontaneously arise in my mind.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Random Thoughts
About what is the truth, and what path will lead me down the right road.
I can continue to complain.
We all have the power to change things. We can be our own miracles.
How do I and How can I perform the miracle of which I ask when everything was taken away?
Everything, more like the things of this world that the natural mind desires.
I wish to be my own miracle. I just need the strength.
I am confused. Still. Distraught from past experiences.
My mind is currently flooded with natural lusts and desires.
I do not wish to fall back into what I have already done to myself in the past.
Some tell me everything happens for a reason. I wish to put my old self away.
Bury the old, with the old ways of thinking and cleanse myself. Be a new creation.
I was told recently, in the midst of my distress to read Philippians 4 and to take away something from it.
Philippians 4
1Therefore, my brothers, you whom I love and long for, my joy and crown, that is how you should stand firm in the Lord, dear friends!
Exhortations
2I plead with Euodia and I plead with Syntyche to agree with each other in the Lord. 3Yes, and I ask you, loyal yokefellow,a]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[a] help these women who have contended at my side in the cause of the gospel, along with Clement and the rest of my fellow workers, whose names are in the book of life.4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
Thanks for Their Gifts
10I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. 11I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.14Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles. 15Moreover, as you Philippians know, in the early days of your acquaintance with the gospel, when I set out from Macedonia, not one church shared with me in the matter of giving and receiving, except you only; 16for even when I was in Thessalonica, you sent me aid again and again when I was in need. 17Not that I am looking for a gift, but I am looking for what may be credited to your account. 18I have received full payment and even more; I am amply supplied, now that I have received from Epaphroditus the gifts you sent. They are a fragrant offering, an acceptable sacrifice, pleasing to God. 19And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.
20To our God and Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
Final Greetings
21Greet all the saints in Christ Jesus. The brothers who are with me send greetings. 22All the saints send you greetings, especially those who belong to Caesar's household.23The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit. Amen.b]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[b]
Forgive me. Renew me. Love me.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Obstacles and Trials
Why do I continue to not do which is right?
Holy Spirit.
Do not hide your face. Listen to me. This is all I want.
Communion is what I desire. Your presence, fellowship, participation, friendship, sharing weakness and comradeship.
As I take another step I let you take control of my path.
Guide me Jehovah. The Holy Trinity. Hold me up, lift me up.
Turn a sinner from his ways. Make the future filled with better days.
I saw things and rejoiced.
I am saved.
I chose to abstain from the spiritual mind and
chose to accept of which my carnal flesh whispers in my ear.
I have come to a revelation.
I have the fear.
For I know even the righteous of heart can be enticed.
We can be thrown from the green pastures.
And return to where we once were.
It takes endurance. Strength through all trials and tribulations.
It takes Faith. A leap. A blind step.
I want that grin. That smile on my face that says. I trust in you.
When I lay down and awaken, pave my way.
Help me soar above mountainous obstacles.
I promise.
From this day forward.
When I open my eyes and before I close them, I will be in communion with the Trinity.
I shall utter the words, "Good Morning Holy Spirit" when a new day abound.
I shall pray at night for as long as the spirit wills.
Pray until I am comforted.
Pray until I'm found.
Hold my hand O merciful Lord. For I humble myself.
I am not filled with broken promises. I am stronger then that.
Heres my cup Lord. Fill it up Lord. With your grace.
Heres my heart Lord. Embrace it.
Heres my flesh Lord. Work through it.
For I am yours. Now and through eternity!
Amen.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Limit
A surrender, humble thy body
A suffrage, persevere in faith.
I accept my limits.
Do you accept yours?
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Formulate a revision
of my mind and soul
write upon and erase my soiled personal narrative
Vindicate me O Lord and rise me up High!
Standing on my tip toes, reaching to the sky
I begin to falter and stumble and try
to remember your promise that was lifted up and put in a way,
which puts a smile on my face every single day.
Now I'm revised and my vision is clear, I can honestly say
"I have nothing to fear."
but you Lord
I honesty fear and of whom
I rejoice,
This revision was hard to come by.
The process:
filled with tears
filled with passion, determination and trust!
Once had gold, now have dust.
"What shall you chose? Lust and desire? No!
Rebuke your lust or you shall return to the fire!"
Away from the natural, go towards the light!
Be lifted up with zeal and might.
Your word glows and the oil flows
The candle flickers, the wind blows.
You were lost, where to go?
Hold my hand, close your eyes.
Take the leap with me.
Through storms and weather
that wish to cloud the light.
I start to fight.
the light fades as I take my last breath I scream out in protest
" Revise me! Return me to the surface! I wish to be new!
I will humble myself, to be more like you!"
My breath has returned and senses renewed.
I gag and repent as the spirit twirls before my eyes
The Heavenly essence is indescribable
The Hand of God transcendent.
I feel as If I am dreaming.
It has begun.
You have struggled through adversity.
Rejoice!
Of my green pastures.